Okay, MIKA FREAKING KICKS ASSSSS! Dude, he just SLAMMED everyone! OMG. Happy Ending is probably the BEST.SONG.EVER. I mean, like SERIOUSLY. I'm not kidding. I mean, imagine this a whole freaking choir singing with Mika. LIKE OMG! The part where all of them sing is just AWESOME. I'm still in awe ... it was like SO good. I nearly CRIED. It's like the ultimatum of music. LIKE OH MY FREAKING GOD. The best song of the century, I'd say. Confidently, at that. If only I can actually catch that song in live ... I'd seriously die a happy man. Yeah, I'd die a VERY contented man. Can you actualy believe that? All you mofos out there, THIS is what I call GOOD music, man. Not the voice that can't even carry a tune for nuts and just jamming the guitar, oh and slamming it in the end. Listen to this, man. You're gonna be crawling back into your shit-hole and never even wanting to come back 'cos you'll be goddamned EMBARRASSED. Okay, my OCD is kicking in. Been listening to that song since like forever. 'Bout time we got stuff like that. Seriously ... haha. I sound funny. It's like I've never heard a darned freaking song before but seriously. Oh and people are saying that Mika is like copying Freddie Mercury and Queen. Well, he was INSPIRED by them you doofuses. Check the dictionary for the meaning you no good dimwits. Besides, if you ask me ... I prefer Mika. I don't really remember being this in awe of either of their songs (referring to Freddie and Queen). Mika, you're gonna do GREAT. You're gonna be a freaking legend, I tell you. If only, man ... I really want to catch that performance LIVE ... that's my only wish.
This is the way you left me,I’m not pretending,
No hope, no love, no glory,
No happy ending
This is the way that we love,
Like its forever,
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together
^ Just the emotions here is enough to make you go on a rollercoaster ride, man. Haha, like Simon will say, THIS is the song to beat. (he says person, I sorta changed it but in the end, it's the whole emphasis that actually counts)
Okay then, I'll just continue with listening to this song, then I'll watch GA at 9, followed by Ugly Betty at 10 oh and ANTM CYCLE 7 at 11!!! OMG! It's like FINALLY ON!!! But then, they didn't make a big deal out of it ... like WHAT THE HELL, right? I know ... anyways, then there's Monday and the blus will kick in. Oh well, I'm gonna live through this all. I've just found a new reason to never give up :D
EDITED: This is 'cos I'm inspired by Mika and not 'cos I was suicidal and this song made me live on. And yes, I just spoiled the whole atmosphere but I just need to get this out clearly to those dense people. You see, they have a way of MISUNDERSTANDING.
Okay, I'm in need of a writing session now after I just watched CSI (don't ask) Oh and I just realised that Alpha and Beta is actually quite easy. I mean, like who the hell knew, right? Yeah, anyways, today I plan to do lots of stuff so hopefully I manage to do at least three-quaters of them. Oh and I think I might have made a discovery. *drumrolls* I think that the theme song for CSI is that Baba O'Reily song! Like omg, I know. Anways, WOOOOTS! This week has been splendid! I was like listening to The Midway State like TONS of times! Ahhh, oh and Dixie Chicks! I JUST found out about her comments to Bush and what happened ... how the song was made ... yada yada. Yeap. She apprantly STOOD OUT AND SPOKE HER MIND and got SLAMMED badly for that, with death threats and everything. Tsk. Blame people on actually having a brain and so much for liberation. Oh and yesterday I was thinking about faith and everything ... actually it was 'cos my sis was reading this book about faith and so I had subconsciously caught that in my mind and was thinking about it yesterday. Anyways, I just realised that we are all very much like ruled by faith. I mean, not necessarily in like god religion or anything, just generally. I mean, why do those forensic scientists/criminalists actually assess a crime scene? Isn't it because they believe that there's a slip-up? I mean, makes perfect sense, right? Yeah, no human being is perfect ... that's their whole vision I bet. Think about it. Oh and then there was the Knut thingy! OMG! Total adorable! For now, at least. Anyways, who cares, right? It's just the cutest thing on earth! Beats all the soft toys, man. This is the ultimate. But, the question is that why did it's mother abandon it? I mean, it's just too adorable! (Haha. Maybe the mom was jealous that it looked so much better than her! But seriously, this contradicts the whole role of a mom, ditching your kid like that. But seriously, that's just so sad. Imagine your mom just wanting to have nothing to do with you) Oh and so the zoo decided to keep it and raise it itself. So much for being humane, right? Some of the animal rights activists are saying that they should have killed the baby. I mean like DUDE, COME ON!! Firstly, I can't stress how cute it is and besides, you don't just go around killing all the polar bears, okay?! Everybody deserves a chance ... I mean just 'cos a mother decided to ditch her kid doesn't mean that the kid is cursed or something like that. Oh and besides, man has been causing so many species to get extinct and well, saving one would definitely be good, right? (FYI, currently, the population of tuna is depleting. Damnit, are we such barbarians?) It's something to commemorate and not like criticse. Oh and so much for even being an animal rights activist ... you should be all on your paws for like SAVING THEM ... whatever happened to the WWF? Anyways, not much time left for debating this issue ... I mean, I have work to do, ya know. So I guess bye for now. Oh and hopefully next week would be fine and that I manage to get Kiki's present ready on time.
the non-believer
Saturday, March 24, 2007
1:53 PM
Hey! Okay, I currently have a Red Hot Chilli Peppers song stuck in my head but wth, it's soothing, nice and oh, I love it. Well, this is a freaking GAZILLION times better than having Paris stuck in my head, man. I mean like hallelujah. Anyways, today's saturday and damnit, time passes so fast! Oh and to make this discovery even more sucky, I'll be leaving for my piano lessons (note the 's' ... I'm going for TWO of them= 2 hours of TORTURE) WHY?! Humph. Nvm. At least I can get a headstart on getting my stuff for Keeeeks. Haha. Operation Kiki is now in full swing. Roger that? Okayokay, let me stop speaking military. Oh and now FF is DYING on me. You don't do that esp. when I'm gonna have a TERRIBLE evening, okay?! Darned you. Anyways, I'll probably come home and finish watching PB. Also, not to forget tha I'll be having to finish my A Maths homework. Ooo! I came up with a new thing. Listen: Homework. It's hardly what I'd be doing if you gave me a choice. *grins* U-huh, can I get a hell-yeah?! Woots. Anyways, I just realised that it's saturday already and I only have sunday left. Oh and did I mention that I have TONS of stuff to do? Oh wells, let me just stop wasting my time here and do something productive? Yeah, Red Hot Chilli Peppers it is then ... time to listen to some music, baby! TOODLES!
the non-believer
Friday, March 23, 2007
6:14 PM
Michael-FREAKING-Scofield! You DON'T do this to people, no you don't. Like omg. I'm you're like ULTIMATE shipper with Sara and you just don't act like an ass and well, blow your chances. AHHHH. Stupid, stupid, stupid you. So much for having like a genius IQ 'cos it doesn't stand anymore, does it? Anyways, I shall not go into the details for fear of spoilers. This blog shall not have any spoilers 'cos Priya B LOATHES them. I mean, how can you NOT hate spoilers, right? I mean, it like TOTALLY ruins the moment. It's just weird if you're not. Anyways, for those who know what I'm talking about, I KNOW I'M SLOW. So, kill me. Two more eppies till Season 1 ends and the first 2 eppies for Season 2 for me to get back on track! Oh and CRAP! I don't have much money and KEEEEEKS exists. Haha ... nvm. EVERYTHING'S NICELY PLANNED OUT. Yeah, I'm so organised, I know. Just hopefully, everything will fall into place and Saturday next week will be a freaking BLAST. Oh and I still don't get why Paddy doesn't like Mika. I mean, WHO THE HELL DOESN'T LOVE MIKA! He freaking ROCKS, man! He's like Prince ... or maybe even better (I know, scary, right?) And awwwww, he supposedly wrote Grace Kelly 'cos he was annoyed with all the record labels for telling him how to sound. I know, stupid. But funny enough, he got a record like a year after he wrote that song. Nevermind about the process. In cases like these, it's the result that counts. But I still don't get why those people didn't give him a record ... he is AMAZING. I would have totally given him one ... oh and fallen GAGA over him too. Haha ... anyways, tomorrow I'm gonna be going for TWO classes of piano lessons. That's like 2 HOURS STRAIGHT! I mean, I can BARELY make it through 1 hour and now I'm like supposed to double that?! Hell no. But, life sucks that way. Karma. Damned thing, I tell you. I miss one and SOMEHOW, I'll just HAVE to repay it. Damn it, man. I haven't even practised. OHOH ad I'm playing that Jazz Piece composed not too long ago ... about in the 90s only! Freaking cool, I know. The usuals are the 40s and beyond and 90s? Woah, that's just cool. U-huh. Yeah so anyways, my plan for this week is to finish up my A Maths homework. Yeap ... wish me luck on that one ... oh and for my lessons tmr. Oh and also, for my present for keeeeks ... HOPEFULLY nothing goes wrong and NOT according to plan. If that happens ... I'm like dead. Okie. Toodles, then. Have a great weekend!
the non-believer
Sunday, March 18, 2007
6:53 PM
Omg. You're like SOO totally gonna love me! I finished my homework! Well, technically no but I've finished the stuff which are due tmr! I know, I like totally rock! Ahhh, finally man. Anyways, I just realised that the most played song on my iTunes is Come On. I mean, who knew right? Ben Jelen rocks ... hmmm, shall check out if his cd is out in Singapore. Oh and I still haven't checked for Landon's LP (WHY LP?! Why couldn't it be something else?! It's like adding salt to the darned bleeding wound. Ouch.) Anyways, I dn't think that Landon's one will even be out yet ... nvm. Shall go to Borders to check sometime later ... let's just cross our fingers okay? I'm in need of some great music 'cos I'm currently traumatised because A***'s sma*k t**t was on the telly just now. Well, for that few seconds when I was happily watching Veronica Mars. Thanks, man (for the uninitated, try SARCASM ... look it up in the dictionary if you're not man enough to take it) Anyways, that was horrible ... I like totally forgot about that guy and SUDDENLY ... I wasn't even prepared for it! Ugh. Haha ... wth, right? Sorry, but I think it's embarasing to even have THAT name on my blog. Too degrading, man. U-huh. Yeap. Anyways, I don't even know why I'm here ... oh wait, FF IS DOWN?!?! What the FREAKING hell right? I mean, I finished my homework and this is how I get rewarded?! Listening to Embrace now ... they're not bad. Oh and there's Ugly Betty on today but then I can't watch! 'Cos I'll be sleeping ... nvm. I'll just tape it and watch it tmr or something. Right now, I think I'll just relax abit and maybe start on my Eng. But why, my mind asks myself ... it's due on FRIDAY, you have SOO much time! U-huh, right. Okay, seems like my own mind is like a bad influence. 'Ever heard of this thing called being SMART?' I remark. Okay haha, weird moment. Anyways, I guess I shall go now. I need to do some stuff ... wish me luck for tmr ya'll!
the non-believer
Saturday, March 17, 2007
9:46 PM
Kevin stated that their sound was "Rock n roll mixed with some passion and emotion and a never-ending drive to succeed, I guess. That's kind of what the name is all about, that quiet drive within us all."
Came upon this just now, you go Kev! Haha. Anyways, you might wanna be asking me about my homework. Well, let me tell you, I SOOO knew it (that SOMEHOW I wouldn't be able to be on time) Hey, at least I did SOMETHING right didn't I? (Go me, man) Anyways, I guess before I sleep after My Name Is Earl or smth, I'll try o finish my chem. Then tmr I'll just have to do my Lit and Geog and then, the freedom is over *dramatic pose* What a freaking tragedy. Will another week hurt? Apparantly. Nevermind. I shall not complain ... life sucks, boo-hoo. Yeah, wdv ... oh and yayness! Today I didnt have any piano lessons! Oh and I just realised that Quietdrive freaking ROCKS. I mean, which other alternative band will actually do their rendition of an Eva Cassidy song ... a freaking CLASSIC so WELL? You go QD! You other noobs can go to hell for all I care ... except maybe AAR ;) Okay, my favourite three genres: First off, like d-uh, Alternative ... then, Indie and last off, Jazz and Pop. U-huh. Oh and I switched on the teevee today and somehow it was at mtv and guess who was on?!?! MIKA!!!! Haha, you go Michael! (Go figure) I mean, THIS is what I wanna see and not like other mofos out there talking about 'how to touch a girl' and 'i belong to me' Well, wdv ... we need some REAL stuff here, man! Oh and like d-uh, I cranked it up! :D So that was my day ... oh and did I mention and I did some hw? Yeap *proud smile* But not enough though ... well, you have to give me some credit here for trying, right? :D Okies then, I guess I'mm off to watch some teevee and then hit the snooze button! (I SOOO said it :D)
the non-believer
Friday, March 16, 2007
10:40 AM
Hey!
Operation Kiki starts today. The oh-so-great Keeks' birthday is coming in like what, 15 days! That's in like two weeeeks! Oh and I haven't done anything yet. AHHHHHH. Panic time. Okay, let me change the topic 'cos I don't want Kiki's head to burst now, would I? (Haha. Hey Nikki!) Oh and I just made a shocking discovery! Today is freaking friday! I mean, on normal weeks I'll probably be like 'THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!' but at times like these, I'm all like 'CRAP!' I don't want next week to come! Yeap. Homework exists and damn that thing, it's devouring on my flesh like maggots on a dead person's body. Yeah, gross analogy but bitter truth. Sucks ain't it? Oh and CRAP! There's geography time-trials on Tuesday! I JUST remembered! You know what, I'll just ignore the fact that it exists and just concentrate on completing my homework on time. Right now, I'm gonna do my tamil compo and then go on to finishing my e-maths hw and then my chem homework. Yeap. Then tomorrow I'll be doing my lit assignment and then my geog. Oh and on sunday (the day I'll be dreading MOST 'cos the next day's a TORTURE) I'll finish up my english assignment. There all nicely planned out but the big question now is, will I be able to finish it? Haha ... I sound like those annoying TV show hosts who are all so drama mama-ish. Yeap. Okay then, keep you updated on my progress! Toodles!
the non-believer
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
7:01 PM
Hey!
Omg. Was watching Tyra Banks show and damnit, it was heartbreaking. She was like telling people to not carry out crazy stunts and was talking to some people who like do these stuff. She also brought in this family in which the guy got seriously injured after doing this stunt. I mean, he like hit this part of his head and now he acts like a two-year-old. How freaking sad is that? He was even in the basketball team once. That's just like terrible. Ahhhh, what's the point in putting yourself out there and trying to find your breaking point?! That's just a crazy concept to me. Call me boring and what-nots but honestly that's just outta this world. I mean, what's the point in pushing yourself ... its like having a competition against yourself and you know, the thing is, you're NOT invincible so you're gonna lose sometime. When that happens, your life is going to become a sob story and you're gonna regret it ... well, if you are in the position to be able to do so, anyways. That just sucks, man. I'm happy to being the wimp who is too scared to go on rides. U-huh. I'm no adrenalin junkie and you know what, I'm fine with that. Never hurt me being one and I don't think it'll hurt now. Yeap. Ugh. Justin Timberlake is on now ... no the telly. That sucks ... sorry, I'm no JT fan now. Used to be but then ... now, after like FOREVER, he starts recording crappy stuff. Well, not saying that I don't really like them but the thing is, whatever happened to him being a Pop guy?! :( Upsetting. Oh and QDQD! Funnnnnny. Yeap. So now, I'll watch American Idol which is on at 8 and it's only 7.20 ... but nvm. I'll be spending my time watching more tv and listen to some songs. Oooo. TSQT would do great! Wokies then, toodles!
the non-believer
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
8:06 PM
Firstly, before I start, QD'S VIDEO IS FINALLLLLLLLY OUT! Check it out, you guys. Haha. Oh and String Quartet Tribute to FOB is actually nicer than them ... weird, I know. Anyways, I haven't watched PB! I was too busy watching Amazing Race ... the finals for the family edition which I've already watched but I don't know why I still wanted to watch it. Anyways, today was interesting! U-huh. The practicals were good but the theory part was like really boring. Well, tmr is the last day and then, YIPEEE! IT'S OVER! Oh but then homework awaits. Oh and Paddy was not having fun in her movie thingy. Muahahaha. This is SUCH an 'I-told-you-so' moment! Paddy, I TOLD YOU SO!! Oh and she kept stalking me, Aish, Keeks and Vaish. Oh and the company today was good too. MHM. I so regret not going yesterday! Anyways, currently gonna have my dinner and then finish the book whcih I started on yesterday ... damnit. I was supposed to finish it by this morning. I better finish it tonight. Yeap. So, I'm sorta BORED blogging so I guess I'll just leave right now.
Awesomeness. TOODLES!
the non-believer
Monday, March 12, 2007
5:35 PM
Hey!
Okay, like omg. How can I NOT blog about friday?!?! U-huh. The most awaited So You Think You Can Dance workshop feat. Ashley Nino and Ashlee Dawson. (I know. You'll be like, WHAT THE FREAKING HELL?!?! What's with the FULLSTOP?! Whatever happened to the exclamation marks?!?!) Honestly, that's how it was. Yeah. Not so appealing anymore, right? It was total intensive dance session and I sorta expected the OPPOSITE. Oh and people like me, who can't dance to save their lives, suffered. Haha ... me and Mei expected to be like more of them dancing and then us talking but we were dancing the whole time and we even had a warm-up session where we did crunches. Is that crazy or crazy? I know. Anyways, now I'm currently reading Fixin' To Die which is a compassionate guide to commiting suicide or staying alive. I know, that's deep. Oh and then I realised this, how many counsellors are there who are unbias in their opinion? I mean, if I went up to this counsellor and said that I wanted to end my life, how many of them will actually talk to me about this with an open mind and how many of them will be telling me what to do ... for example, telling us that suicide is neither rational nor an approriate act? In fact, I think they'll probably ship me off to IMH before I could even blink my eyes. U-huh. Sad fact. Anyways, listening to the string quartet tribute is really relaxing. Oh and it is like the best music to put on when reading a book. Note that. Right, so now, I guess I'll go continue reading that book and then probably go on to Stephen King. Yeap, I'll do just that or but crap, homework exists. Nevermind about that ... I'm tired to think anyways. :D
the non-believer
Thursday, March 08, 2007
9:19 PM
Okay, so let me run this down with you. Tomorrow's the last day of school and I've got TONS of homework to complete. Fine, I have a Lit essay due tmr. Oh and did I mention that I'm tired? Yeah, I know. I don't even know what I'm doing here but I'm just trying to convert that Dixie Chicks song into mp3 format. Btw, does anybody know how to do that? Oh it's some .ram file or some crap like that. Yeah oh and while you're at it, how about converting the .aac files? Yeap, that'll just be great. Haha. Okay, that was wierd. Anyways, today was okay, I guess. Can't wait for tomorrow though! I'm freaking meeting Ashlee Nino and Ashlee Dawson (can't rmb how she looks though!) I MEAN THEY DANCED WITH PEOPLE LIKE TRAVIS, BENJI, RYAN, DANIELLE, HEIDI ... OMG, RIGHT?! That's freaking crazy! I mean, singapore?! Oh and of allll places, Creascent? Well, wdv. Works for me just fine, heh. I SOOOO can't wait for that, man. Oh but then, I still have to do that essay. Why can't I just spend the hols doing it? At least I'll probably come up with a better piece of work! :( Okay, fine. I shan't complain about it 'cos nothing is going to spoil my lasy day of school, man. Yes. NOTHING. Okay then, I guess I shall do something about the essay (still deliberating, though) So, till next time everyone.
And take a minute to reflect in your own way
Take your time and connect in your own way
I know it’s good to be alone some days
But you got a long face in your own way, baby
I know you got a big heart in your own way
Independent and smart in your own way
And even though you get along somehow
You’re missing out now in your own way, baby
the non-believer
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
8:13 PM
So much for actually hoping for something good, huh? Well, I'll just come out and say this ... I did badly for all my tests. As in like REALLY, LITERALLY failed. Such a downer, right. I'm cursed, doomed to fail. Well, I realised that I'm not gonna say that just to make me feel comforted. The real reson was that I studied the textbook but I guess in the end, I didn't really understand it. I came up with my theories to make myself belive everything. Yeah, my appications weren't there. Then why the hell did everybody do so damned bloody better than me? Well, I don't really have the answer but the thing is that I guess I'm taking a longer time to get used to everything. Nevermind. I know that I'm saying this and frankly, I haven't gotten over it but I kow I will ... soon. After that, I'm gonna give it all I can and even then, if I fail ... well, I'd rather not think of that yet. I've totally embarrased myself and I actually felt like vomitting after looking at my marks ... yes, it was that bad. Oh and I everybody gave me the look of pity. Ironically, that actually made me feel a lot worse. I don't know ... if people said that I was stupid and everything I would have been mad and if people comforted me because they pitied me, then they made me feel worse so it goes badly both ways. Oh and then there was the group who said it was okay. Yeah, first test and everything but honestly, I don't think its okay. I guess I was so bumped out about everything because this time, I really studied and when I say studied, I really mean studied. I had started much earlier and so I was quite surprised by everything. Well, it's going to be okay, I hope. However, right now, I don't really wanna get back my Physics and SS 'cos I just don't wanna fail anymore, ya know. I guess in cases like these, a little knowledge is safe ... oh wells. Nevermind about that. Let's talk about orathorical. It was my first time and I was really nervous at the beginning but towards the end, I sorta got comfortable with everything and so that was good. Oh and no one, well, not much people laughed at my joke. Okay, no comments about that. Let's just forget it, shall we? (just so you know, it wasn't really me *cough*) Yeah, so by a twist of fate, I might have gotten in but everything hasn't been going my way so I don't hope for this to. Okay, I'm like having a split personality disorder right now. I'm both positive and negtive. Well, it's mostly negative but the positive of me keeps comin out to make me feel better and try to get over this whole thing as soon as pssible 'cos frankly, I can't wait to get started on studying. Yeap. So I gotta go have my dinner now ... guess I'll take my leave.
the non-believer
Monday, March 05, 2007
5:41 PM
An important lesson learnt today: NEVER EVER ever faint in a toilet. It's just HARD, literally. Ouch ... that's all I can say from experience. Anyways, thanks to that I didn't go to school today (it still hurts, btw) Yeap. So I just realised that I have a speech due tomorrow. Well, a speech that I hadn't really voluntarily wanted t join, really. Somehow got forced into but nevermind, I think it involves borders gift card vouchers so I'm all ready. Well, that is, if I finish my script. But hey, how hard can a script get, right? Oh and damnit, where the freaking hell is my list of 'Things I Wish I'd Known Sooner'?? Miss that one loads, ya know. It was seriously funny and I can't wait to find it. Laughing at my own misfortunes is like taking low blows but like wth ... it's hilarious. You guys should try it sometime. Satisfaction guaranteed. Yeah, anyways, on with the script. What's the title again? Oh yeah. 'Is beauty more important or intelligence' Such a typical question so like hopefully it's a breeze (fill you in on how it went tomorrow. Somehow, I think it will be as good as I think it is) Oh and I know we got some results today ... I think it was E-Maths and Chem ... hopefully, everything turned out okay. Yeah so today hasn't been much of an interesting day ... well, except for the fact that my monday blues hit me pretty hard. Yeah, so that's just it for now, I guess. Quietdrive's single's out. Quite okay, I guess. Oh and guess what?!?! OTH 3rd OST will feature Tyler's and Jack's new songs ... the track listing isn't out yet ... but I pseudo one is. Well, I don't know if it's IT but hopefully not, the songs there are like not really nice. I mean like there wasn't any Centre of Attraction?! But they had La Rocca ... well, they better did! Okay, so now I'm watching Simpsons so I'm off! Ciao for now! (pfffft. haha. FUNNY)
the non-believer
Sunday, March 04, 2007
7:23 PM
First off, me and wrapping papers don't have ANY chemistry. It's worst now 'cos I only have a limited amount of it ... it makes my life get a whole lot tougher. Yes, people. I'm currently stuck with this pathetic amount of this really pretty wrapping paper and I'm all like 'shit, how the hell am I supposed to do this?' Yes. Nevermind about that. Right now, let me back track and maybe that'll give my brain some time to come up with a solution. Friday was very much like a Friday. I mean, how bad can Fridays get, right? Even if they're like crappified beyond belief, it's the weekends after that so nobody really gives a damn. U-huh. So then there's Saturday where I had my piano lessons and did a little 'birthday shopping' and went back home. I realised that I'm the most fickle-minded person I've ever known. I mean, I kept making trips to the counter only to go back and get something else. Imagine this: You went into a shop with your friend (you are really tired, btw) only for her to take an eternity to get what she wants. Sorry, Praba. You had to resort to get out of the shop without me even realising. But that was quite rude of you, actually. I mean, I was actually having a conversation with you only to realise that it wasn't really you. Yes. That's pretty awkward, isn't it? Anyways, been reading the book which I borrowed under Paddy's name and is overdued. Just started, actually. Nevermind about that. It's a good book ... can't wait to finish it. Okay, let me stop being so calm and everything. I'll be getting back my results next week. I worked my ass studying hard for the tests and if I don't do well I guess I'm gonna be quite bumped out about it. I mean, I started studying for them about a few days then I normally do and that's really something. If I don't do as expected, I think I might actually resort to giving up, really. It's no point anymore ... me studying like crap and then THAT crappified shit of a mark is what I get for my tests. The thing is that, I don't really have an idea WHERE I went wrong! If that doesn't drive someone crazy, what would? Yeah so let's just cross our nice little fingers hoping that maybe, just maybe I can actually be content with my marks. Oh and there's Ugly Betty on today. Not missing that ... probably will tape it though, 'cos I'd be too busy sleeping to watch it. Ugh ... why would someone sleep so early? School. Something which I've been DREADING ever since this year started. You know, everything's just so weird to get used to and I'm given so little time to get used to the new environment and having tests just make you wanna give up all the more. I mean, it's no stupid lame-ass stepping stone but it's just this huge rock that's thrown at you and you sometimes, you can't get out of its way in time. That's how I feel about this whole thing. It's just stressful and seriously, what's the freaking point in like pressurizing all of us for this test that's the end of next year?! (oh yes ... how could I forget? We have VERY little time, don't we?) Well ... at least let me get used to everything. I'm like SHEEEESH, PEOPLE! GET A FREAKING LIFE OF YOUR OWN AND STOP TRYING TO STEAL MINE, WOULD YA? Ahhh. This is just too much to take and sometimes, you seriously can't help but just wanna succumb to the idea that you're never gonna get over it and you're doomed to fail this. I really wanna fast-forward my life and get into university ... I can't wait to get to university. Well, even graduate from it and buy myself a nice apartment by the sea and just settle down. No school, no exams, no homework ... just the way I like it. That's the good life, I tell you. Can't wait to get to that stage. Well, till then I guess that I'll just have to suffer. Hopefully I make it out alive ... if I don't, well then, that's just too bad, right? Right now, I think I've just found the perfect solution to the wrapping paper thing. Did it really take me this long to type the whole entry to get it? Damn, I must really suck at this. Nevermind, when the right time comes, I'll be hiring people to wrap gifts for me. No worries ... ahh, I love day-dreaming. So long, everyone.
the non-believer
